Monday, July 23, 2007

Monophobia

There’s one topic that I’ve been trying to bury at the back of my head and yet keep on pressing its way infront: working abroad! The last time was before I left Intel, and then came my best friend’s sudden departure and the latest was my college buddies, Mac and Ruth.

This news last Tuesday also hit me like a tidal wave and it made me reflect on my current situation once again on my way home. With what my single status and tender young age, this would have been the perfect time to do it. But for the umpteenth time, I would like to reiterate that I don’t have any plans of leaving. Not that I’m patriotic or something. Truth be told, there's a lot of things that I abhor here in the Philippines. I’m really just not acclimated to it.

Pondering: I know I may not be earning a good whack as compared to them but I can say that I’m happy with what I’m doing right now. With what the social events and kind co-workers, yes I’m pretty much contented. I know my future’s not that sorted out yet and that I can’t clearly envisage myself 5 years from now but I believe what’s important is that I’m concentrating on improving myself in every possible way I could.

So what vexes me then? Well, it’s more of my friends. Mae, Intan, Mark, Herbert, Joy, Dexter, Bong, Ruth and Mac have already left. I suddenly felt ALONE!!

Out of depression, I called up my ex that night. He is already having his forty winks when I rang him and breathed onto him my worries. I said “Sino na lang maiiwan sa akin?” to which he instantly said “Ako!”. I was somehow comforted with what he said. I just hope he really meant it. After I rang away, Herbert called from Canada. Not more than 5 minutes later, Mark from Saudi called in my mobile. I knew I didn’t have to choose. So the landline receiver is on my left ear while I was holding my cellphone on the right with Mark on speaker mode. I was so happy to hear from them again. :D Suddenly all the morose thoughts earlier quickly vanished. I’M NOT ALONE!! I'M NOT ALONE!! They may not be physically present but I know they’ll never forget me. I’m always in their hearts like I know they are on mine. Cheesy! Haha!

So to Xiela who confirmed that she’ll just follow suit if ever I decided to move, thank you. Coz somehow it meant that you’ll stay for as long as I’m here right? Hehe.

And here’s to success for opportunities and careers of me and my friends. :) I wish all of you brick and mortar of happiness in your chosen fields. And always remember, our parting only gives way to HAPPIER reunions and gatherings. ;)

7 comments:

Shiela Amor said...

yes KC, like what I said sa YM...haha,i will be here, i'll take my time, i won't rush things =)

Nivek said...

Whah... I thought I you'd consider coming here or someplace close. Oh well :( Maybe instead of calling ur ex next time, you can call one of your new friends...

kCNeSs said...

hi kev! appreciate the advice, it won't happen again, promise. :) and about working in Canada, well you haven't sent me the links yet. :P

Tisha said...

Old friends may leave, but they'll always be there for you, for sure. Plus, you have the chance to meet loads of new people.:)

Dee Dee's Laboratory said...

They are right..even we're far away from each other...technology brings us together so don't worry friend...

kCNeSs said...

hi tisha! lovely of u to drop by! :) well i hope i can add u as one of my friends, even if it's thro online.. ;)

mae? what's up with dee dee's lab? ;)

Dee Dee's Laboratory said...

wala lng...code name ko instead of dexter's lab...